I’ve been on the phone w/ my therapist like
I’m scared to miss the funeral when my uncle pass
Now I’m begging you been calling Peggy sue
I’m turning Buddy Holly going up to crash

Running with my shoes untied and heavy eyelids
I know I’m gonna trip
I got Bloody knees, I bruised my pride
Gonna lose my mind if i don’t jump the ship

Life’s a losing game
Like Who’s to blame
My world or my bad decisions
I am yes, that selfish, I built the frame and I don’t fit inside the picture

I might disappoint you, I might disappear,
I prolly dip my work unfinished
You are more right now then I will ever be
or find in any word I’ve ever written


I’m about my business boy,
All that risk reward
I hit my tipping point
And then I bit the bullet,
Bang bang the boy fell down
If they try to say they kill me,
They didn’t do it
They didn’t do it

I loaded the barrel with bullshit
Who did it? I put the fear in my eyes
Me and myself alone are my greatest demon
I’m the only reason that I’m terrified


I been digging holes for myself and my darkest secrets,
Put a message in a bottle and hoping nobody read it
This my last writ call Lazarus
Got an anchor on my ankle I’m swimming down in the deep end

Please someone take my hand
Please someone ease my mind
Please don’t leave tonight
Read every word I write
Please this only thing it’s the only thing

Break my hands and hold me down I think I’m ready to fold
Today my friends will know

look, I don’t wanna die but I wouldn’t mind
peace and quiet
I see in black and white
But I been bluer than a field of violet
My last rose died
I been fiendin for black of my eyelids

I don’t really sleep
That’s where my demons hide
Buried my fear in my dreams,
Dig deep inside
Quick read the lines
Quit, sew the seeds
And plant some peace of mind,
pick up the pieces of my feeble mind,

my love die young
my friends drive fast
my darkness sick
my light don’t last
my heart gave in
my people passed
my room is empty
my ceiling s cracked

how you think it feels to be this careful
i walk on eggshells and sleep on a bed of nails
but my heart is in the right place, right
it sucks here, but it oughta be better there

im so lost
can’t find a crack in the rock face to cling on
not afraid of looking down
it’s the top I'm scared to be on
my whole life a free climb
my last year a free fall
don’t trust me when i tell you i don’t need y’all
you keep me floating
i can’t be grounded
one slip up and I'ma lose my balance
ima lose my head, I'ma break my back
if my pain gets out i might just move this mountain
my eyes are cloudy
the sky is crying
i don’t want to die but i wouldn’t mind some peace and quiet
oh i love the noise
oh i need the silence
oh i need more time
but everybody dies young
everybody dies young


Break my hands and hold me down I think I’m ready to fold
Today my friends will know