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Glass House

by Sashathem

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1.
Fragile 01:12
You ask me why I’m still here. I remember skipping stones with sand beneath my feet, We made a castle built for kings, or at least me and all my friends. I remember how I fortified my walls; I dug a moat around my fortress Told the Ocean, “Give me all you’ve got, my house can handle it.” The Sky hasn’t been that blue in over a decade You ask me why I’m still here. I have nowhere else to go I built this house to handle high tide, not fire and brimstone The walls came down like Jericho, the sky turned black My friends turned to ash and my castle turned to glass And now this fragile little house is all I have Please, don’t skip stones near my glass house. It’s too fragile.
2.
Glass House 03:42
I can’t see past myself I can no longer breathe My head won’t wrap around These thoughts inside of me I’ve been treading water Trying to keep my head above of the waves Sinking in my sorrows till tomorrow turns today I’ve been building up a wall to keep my troubled thoughts at bay, thinking, “Here lies me, my hopes and dreams, and my mistakes” They told me, “Don’t forget how much you love to swim, it’s how you get by.” They don’t understand I won’t remember in the riptide Seen far too many to people stranded, lost without purpose My only hope is if I finally make it back this shit was worth it Don’t skip stones near my glass house I’m fragile enough One more crack and my foundation Finds it place in the dust I might break down, who’s to say when? Who’s to say how? Losing faith in saviors say they’re coming any day now Break out, That ship has sailed i’ve not been saved Louder when the weather’s fine and softer when it rains I’ve been treading water as of late Trying to keep my head above the waves I can’t see past myself I can no longer breathe My head won’t wrap around These thoughts inside of me I am nothing if not a creature of habit, I think I’ve had it I’m nothing without the demons I keep locked up in my attic I know one to my addicts to be acting how I’m acting Can you separate the person from the practice? I didn’t think so Stuck in a cycle I’m stuck in the same No thriller, No Michael, I’m stuck in my ways I’m a product of my own problems Can’t drop a project, I don’t got one. Exhibit A why I won’t make it Woah, why am I so temperamental? Don’t get too close Take the sentiments you’re holding to and let them go If I have to let you know, I’ll let you know I’m better off without you, If you think this is about you, it’s not This is about a person I don’t wanna be, gon’ throw away my shot I’m not gon’ throw away my passion, I know one too many addicts to be acting how I’m acting I’m nothing if not a creature of habit I can’t see past myself I can no longer breathe My head won’t wrap around These thoughts inside of me I cannot, I cannot, I cannot, I cannot, I can’t I cannot, I cannot, I cannot, I cannot, I can’t I cannot, I cannot, I cannot, I cannot, I can’t I cannot, I cannot, I cannot, I cannot, I can’t
3.
Meet me in the garden Gotta water my ambitions I don’t wanna be alarmist I don’t trust water under bridges Bucket full, don’t fuck it up Bucket dry when the sun is up Where do you run when the fun is up? Where do you run when you when your luck is dry, when there’s nothing left, when you run inside and it’s sudden death? In another life, in another head Give it a try Give it a rest Give it a try Give it a rest I could probably make it out of this Something hidden in my mattresses Satisfy me with a palindrome, take my matters home with my malices It’s a crazy world when your off your axis They don’t know me When they say i’ve had it Maybe one day i’ll be breaking habits There’s a better Sasha in my trailing shadow It’s a long way home For a half-baked poet with a sad face Wrote it when they asked what’s wrong Whispered, “I should hold my tongue” Give it a try give it a rest Give it a try give it a rest You’ll need me when the night runs dry You’ll need me when I’m feeling low In the garden I will go reap the seeds that I have sown Give it a rest, give it a rest, give it a rest Give it a try, tried your best, give it a rest Give it a rest, give it a rest, give it a rest Give it a try, tried your best, give it a rest All I need was a stone’s throw away from Heaven’s gate Don’t know if it will ever change Lord knows there’s a better day When it settles we could make a real sweet home I need some way to count my losses Make it outside my closet I been alone too often I been alone so long All this empty in my stomach makes it easier to vomit Tried to find what I had lost I think it’s buried in the garden All I needed was a call, I’m sinking deeper into darkness I could leave here in a minute Maybe meet you in the garden Gotta water my ambitions I don’t wanna be alarmist I don’t trust water under bridges Bucket full, don’t fuck it up Bucket dry when the sun is up Where do you run when the fun is up? You’ll need me when the night runs dry You’ll need me when I’m feeling low In the garden I will go reap the seeds that I have sown Give it a rest, give it a rest, give it a rest Give it a try, tried your best, give it a rest Give it a rest, give it a rest, give it a rest Give it a try, tried your best, give it a rest
4.
She don’t get it, this is how I’m living She don’t get it, this is how I’m living She don’t get it, this is how I’m living She don’t get it, this is how I’m living I’m on the highway hitting 110 and wondering when the summer ends I need another minute I do it my way, my way, with no room to squeeze I only do it for me, so why you hanging on? Reading the writing on the walls in the bathroom stalls I get called out like every seven inches She the type that expects you to call her but my phone been broken I can’t remember seven digits Got me tripping And my memory slipping I get it, I got it, I’m good, It’s gone In the thick of it, under the influence Under the bridge, could run away in under a minute Could leave you standing at the altar in front of all of your friends I can’t be trusted with a date I can’t be trusted with a heart Love me when I stay but I’m a runner from the start I’m a runner from the start My feet hit ground at sunrise and I’ll keep running until it’s dark I’m sorry She don’t get it, this is how I’m living She don’t get it, this is how I’m living She don’t get it, this is how I’m living She don’t get it, this is how I’m living She said, “Wait, whatchu really living for? The fuckboy life, or you want more? It ain’t the high road if you cut corners Look around you got one foot on a good thing and one out the door So whatchu in it for? I’m not gonna wait up If you keep making deals with the devil, One day you gon’ have to pay up And recognize you wasted a better life Acting like the whole thing’s televised Stop it, knock it off, you not that important No camera in the mirror, Truman why you performing Look me in the eyes when you tell me that you’re better off alone I see the pain in your face but you ignore it She said, “men ain’t shit, you aren’t any different. You gon’ end up all alone. You don’t stand for anyone or anything” I said, “Wait, hold up woah” She don’t get it, this is how I’m living She don’t get it, this is how I’m living She don’t get it, this is how I’m living She don’t get it, this is how I’m living She don’t get it It isn’t how it used to be I took all the tom up out my foolery Never been the masculine type A secret under wraps and I was making a light Ain’t had a sabbath in sight How I lavish in a self-made image Built a casket for my wrath and put my past self in it It’s a path I forged so I could travel untethered to where I’m headed Found what matters in a new beginning She don’t get it This is how I’m living now It isn’t how it used to be She don’t get it And she never will
5.
HELLRAISER 03:13
I don’t wanna change myself for you I just wanna wear my hoops Lookin cute like a baddie would do Don’t wanna please nobody else but myself You could tell I’m a hell raiser, yeah baby You got a lot on the table why don’t you deal me in? I’m like Petrushka, I’m tangled the way you reel me in You only open your arms wide when you need a fix Tracking the marks see if the needle fit What you need bliss for I don’t see no, hear no, speak no threefold chimp No peace when I’m here but i feel you feel me let evil in The season for leaving oughta be now right now Upheaval I think I need a lift I might be a they I might be a them I might fuck with her I might fuck with him I’m always on the way to another function you won’t ever have a stay a say in who I fuck with Baby I’m an H E double L Raiser If you hate me I could tell baby By the look in your partner’s eyes By the look in your partner’s eyes I don’t wanna change myself for you I just wanna wear my hoops Lookin cute like a baddie would do Don’t wanna please nobody else but myself You could tell I’m a hell raiser, yeah baby I don’t wanna change myself for you I just wanna wear my hoops Lookin cute like a baddie would do Don’t wanna please nobody else but myself You could tell I’m a hell raiser, yeah baby 22 on the 22nd i got nothing here left to lose i put a shoe on the pedal looking better in the hoops and the black wings you did a bad thing you want it back run it back what the past bring last one last thing last summer last spring trio when i spaz like it’s jazz and i’m nat king ain’t nobody match me yet ain’t nobody pass me yet lay it on me ask me if i I would like to do this for the rest of my life i know backstabbing judas in my lap with a knife i got love i got truth i got blood on my shoes ali baba i got juked i got nothing but juice they want the pain and the proof and the faith and the truth spending days in my room couple days till i’m loose raise hell for myself ain’t it you could tell i’m a hell raiser yeah baby I don’t wanna change myself for you I just wanna wear my hoops Lookin cute like a baddie would do Don’t wanna please nobody else but myself You could tell I’m a hell raiser, yeah baby I don’t wanna change myself for you I just wanna wear my hoops Lookin cute like a baddie would do Don’t wanna please nobody else but myself You could tell I’m a hell raiser, yeah baby
6.
I’ve been on the phone w/ my therapist like I’m scared to miss the funeral when my uncle pass Now I’m begging you been calling Peggy sue I’m turning Buddy Holly going up to crash Running with my shoes untied and heavy eyelids I know I’m gonna trip I got Bloody knees, I bruised my pride Gonna lose my mind if i don’t jump the ship Life’s a losing game Like Who’s to blame My world or my bad decisions I am yes, that selfish, I built the frame and I don’t fit inside the picture I might disappoint you, I might disappear, I prolly dip my work unfinished You are more right now then I will ever be or find in any word I’ve ever written I’m about my business boy, All that risk reward I hit my tipping point And then I bit the bullet, Bang bang the boy fell down If they try to say they kill me, They didn’t do it They didn’t do it I loaded the barrel with bullshit Who did it? I put the fear in my eyes Me and myself alone are my greatest demon I’m the only reason that I’m terrified I been digging holes for myself and my darkest secrets, Put a message in a bottle and hoping nobody read it This my last writ call Lazarus Got an anchor on my ankle I’m swimming down in the deep end Please someone take my hand Please someone ease my mind Please don’t leave tonight Read every word I write Please this only thing it’s the only thing Break my hands and hold me down I think I’m ready to fold Today my friends will know look, I don’t wanna die but I wouldn’t mind peace and quiet I see in black and white But I been bluer than a field of violet My last rose died I been fiendin for black of my eyelids I don’t really sleep That’s where my demons hide Buried my fear in my dreams, Dig deep inside Quick read the lines Quit, sew the seeds And plant some peace of mind, pick up the pieces of my feeble mind, my love die young my friends drive fast my darkness sick my light don’t last my heart gave in my people passed my room is empty my ceiling s cracked how you think it feels to be this careful i walk on eggshells and sleep on a bed of nails but my heart is in the right place, right it sucks here, but it oughta be better there im so lost can’t find a crack in the rock face to cling on not afraid of looking down it’s the top I'm scared to be on my whole life a free climb my last year a free fall don’t trust me when i tell you i don’t need y’all you keep me floating i can’t be grounded one slip up and I'ma lose my balance ima lose my head, I'ma break my back if my pain gets out i might just move this mountain my eyes are cloudy the sky is crying i don’t want to die but i wouldn’t mind some peace and quiet oh i love the noise oh i need the silence oh i need more time but everybody dies young everybody dies young Break my hands and hold me down I think I’m ready to fold Today my friends will know
7.
Sage 03:39
I’ve been stuck with my face in the ground I miss fucking around I might feel safe in the stars I might light sage in your car I might burn bridges wherever I am Wherever you are I put my faith in a faraway place I saw in a picture frame In between what I’m missing and what I found in your arms I found safety in the greatest beyond Ask me if you’ll take me someday You say after you’re gone I think maybe you could ask me how to say what I want I want to be where you are I want to be where you are I want it now I’ve been stuck with my face in the ground I miss fucking around I’ve been stuck with my face in the ground I miss fucking around Need a place to think Need a way to follow through Leave me on my own I don’t know what’s stopping you I don’t wanna call I don’t have the option to I don’t wanna fall Look me in the eyes I don’t know what’s stopping you I just wanna talk to you I just wanna speak my truth I don’t know what’s keeping you I don’t ever think things through Burn sage to air out the air of you I don’t know what’s keeping me Living in a fever dream I can’t breathe I don’t know how without you I’ve been stuck with my face in the ground I miss fucking around I’ve been stuck with my face in the ground I miss fucking around I’ve been stuck with my face in the ground I miss fucking around I’ve been stuck with my face in the ground I miss fucking around
8.
Cold cup and a hand rolled Otis sang our morning to an anthem My days got so good when you became the and one Hand in a slightly smaller hand in tandem You finally made me grab my camera Somebody called me handsome You told me I’m divine Lilah tricked Samson over boxed wine Real love goes vanilla to an off-white I hid your secret in my lungs and then I coughed mine I might - I might end up just like you Twenty something and still living like I missed my youth My mind ain’t justice When it pictures you Might you remind me what a kiss might do If i ever quit tripping I’ma fix my shoes I’ma fix this lip that I busted When you bit mine blue I might need another minute We could kick till June We could live like I was never sentimental But you fixed my I don’t ever want to give my… But to you But to you I think you’re divine I think you’re divine Divine Divine Rolling up divinity An olive branch A bread-breaking swisher sweet Mardi Gras marching To a Dilla beat It’s time I… I finally put a word on what you meant to me Kick-flip, a two-step skip to what it’s finna be A Polaroid, popsicle sticks, picture a Christmas tree Holidays were bittersweet I couldn’t put my finger on it Then i met mine Learned it doesn’t take three to make a man or otherwise person wise I know what real love should look like Before I didn’t know what real love could look like You are a heavenly creature like a lamb of god I thought I saw a lion in my paradise I was running through the garden like a marathon You treat a heart so precious when you carry mine I’ve got a butterfly stomach when i’m close to you I’m seeing stars like an old cartoon Found out I was missing half When you showed me what the whole heart do Revelations when I spoke to you Tell me with your lips what mine told you It must be something like, I think you’re divine I think you’re divine Divine Divine
9.
Every time I close my eyes I see your face Every time you say goodbye I wish that you would stay Wonder if you look both ways stay when you cross my mind baby i could change yours i don’t wait this time i don’t wanna waste yours don’t know what to say i wrote it feeling low when im home without you i don’t wanna chase highs i being seeing out of focus, seeing out of focus praying you would stay for the solstice take me with a grain of salt i aint gonna change but it’s oh . shit. you. close my eyes i see you closed yours too seeing colors never felt so blue lately i been fuckin antisocial, and i can’t control it not another minute running circles ill be breaking orbit can’t control it, damn it all im fading out of focus close my eyes and it’s a fading portrait praying i could see your face again i miss waking up in heaven every morning you got see me soon it’s just another day i aint gonna play this time i aint with the games this time all i want is you all i want is you beautiful you, beautiful day all i want is you to stay with me, i know it’s just another day but Every time I close my eyes I see your face Every time you say goodbye I wish that you would stay Every time I close my eyes I see your face Every time you say goodbye I wish that you would stay i wonder if you speak my name i can’t get away from it nothings gonna take you break you make you feel the same from it running like i seen your face coming knowing that’ll be the day won’t it i’ll choked up when you show love but but you know i'll never say nothing i want you to stay with me and help me feel it love wait until I say my piece then i’m leaving love i might never shake this fear i’ll never be enough i’ll never say the thing you wanna hear unless i mean it love i been caught up with it falling in it need a fix her needle thin I'm feeling empty tell me this ain't all i need though this can’t be all i need though I've been codependent rolling in it loaded and unloaded it I'm outta focus woe is this and yes is no is over out I dug my grave and dove in it Now I’m in the deep end drowning Ain't nowhere to breathe around me could it be a dream i doubt it i don’t wanna pretend now are you gonna leave me out here am i gonna see you round i don’t wanna speak about when i told you that - every time i close my eyes
10.
Exhale 01:09
Everyday I marvel at existence Deep breath I thank the stars that I’m still here Despite cast judgement and stones Despite cracks in the skin and walls and foundation of this lonely little glass home Everyday I marvel at existence Deep breath I thank the stars that I’m still here

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released March 5, 2021

Art by Christian Arnder

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